I've been thinking about the game freeze tag a lot lately. As silly as it sounds, its kind of profound. One person is "it" and they chase the group, everyone knows that if you get tagged, you can't move. Worse yet, you need one of your friends to come tag you so you can be unfrozen. The game has no winner or loser and no end. Its a constant chase.
I think thats a beautiful metaphor for needing our friends, but the thought I've had lately is I want to learn to recognize when I am frozen.
It happens sometimes. I get stuck, whether emotionally or habit wise. I am by nature a pretty self reflective person. I think its one of my strengths. But there comes a time where you have to start moving your feet.
Kids have the luxury of waiting for someone to tag them. As adults, we have to learn to unfreeze ourselves.
For me, I think this means that I can disassociate from how I feel and just take actions. I don't have to be emotionally invested in cleaning my house, I can zone out and do it. I don't have to be present when I am creating a comedy flyer, I can just do it.
I am most miserable when I get stuck in the war room of my heart and I forget that there is an actual battle, filled with chaos and decisions. Strategy is beautiful. I'm always looking for ways to live better. Maybe more than most, I'm aware of my mortality and I know everything ends. I want to know what mistakes I'm making so I won't be dismantled by them unconsciously.
But all that being said, you can't win if you don't play. 1 decision is heavier than 100 plans.